I know, I know, it's been a while since I was on here. It has been a journey and a long one at that. But now, I'm sure. When I started this blog, I just wanted a platform to share my thoughts on certain issues. I had no idea that God was stirring up something big. I did not even imagine that God was doing anything with it. I just thought I had a brilliant idea and went with the flow. Something I have learnt is that, every idea or inspiration comes from somewhere, either from God(Holy Spirit) or from the Devil. This particular idea, I came to realise, was from God. But because I was not conscious or sensitive to the voice and will of God, I carried out the vision without God's Leading.
Unfortunately, it took years of listening halfway to God's instruction for me to finally realise that this was something inspired by the holy spirit and I needed to do and write as the Holy Spirit wanted and led. So, I became inconsistent and lazy about this blog until I finally abandoned it. For about four(4) consecutive years, as each year begins and I'm praying to God for instructions for the new year, continuing this blog is always on the list. But as every year passed, I kept neglecting it. I think this last year was when it hit me like a bus.
The year 2022, was a lot but I am grateful regardless. From my convocation in January and my 22nd birthday in February, to finally going for NYSC in March, after praying for years that it should be scrapped when my time comes *laughs*. From the two months delay in reposting to finally working and living with my Grandma. From absolutely detesting my job to my parents transfer to the north and then loosing my grandma and learning the importance of life and gratitude. Yeah, it was definitely a whole lot and this was just a summary.
Regardless of all of this, God showed me the good in all. Even with my inconsistency, disobedience and laziness throughout the year, God showed me mercy. When my grandma died, It broke me. I had never experienced death this up-close. I watched her unconscious body, struggle for breath that I was breathing freely at the hospital. I had faith that she was going to wake up. I really did. But a voice in the back of my head kept telling me that it was time. Funny how I remember rebuking the thoughts in my head thinking it was the devil. I didn't believe she was dead until her body was covered up by sand in the ground. That experience made me realise how far away from God I was. I kept asking myself, "how did I not see this coming". With the level I believed my relationship with God was at, I should have seen this coming. So I started to analyse it until I realised that for the most of the year I had been practically deceiving myself.
Before you think the worst of me like some people might already be doing, I had been doing everything required by a typical believer. Study my Bible, praying, meditating on God's word, listening to Gods word, fasting, going to church etc. But I wasn't consistent.
Joshua 1:8 AMP "This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall read [and meditate on] it day and night, so that you may be careful to do [everything] in accordance with all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will be successful."
I still remember hearing God's specific instructions on some certain things but ignoring it. A lot of times, I wasn't sure it was him talking. He'd say somethings and I'd think "Nahhh... That can't be from God". Sometimes I let my own desires cloud what God was actually saying. Sometimes when I heard, I'd know its him, I'll start the work and stop halfway. And as time went on, cos I hadn't been obedient enough, I stopped hearing from him. But because of all these issues above, I never realised that he had stopped speaking or should I say "reduced his communication level." Yeah that's the right way to put it. Cos I mean, God still came through on rare occasions. I still heard him like everyday, on my way to work, at church, preparing for my Sunday School class or to teach the teenagers at Church. I still heard him. But you see it's one thing to just live your life and its another thing to live in God's will.
One thing I admire a lot about Zealous Christians, especially in my church, is how they're able to pinpoint the particular moment when they had certain encounters. For instance, their salvation experience. I mean, I had no idea what I was doing giving my life to Jesus at age 4😂😂 I really don't remember how it felt or why I agreed but I remember being confident in the decision I was making. And in my not so far walk with God, I never really had those unique moments that could be deemed testimony worthy. I just had these little nudges from the Holy Spirit day after day, events after events, moments after moments, promptings after promptings. Until the day I sat down, meditated and put all pieces of the puzzle together and it all made sense. The Holy Spirit showed me what I needed to do and how I needed to do it. And we agreed that even if I was going to be lazy about any other thing in my life (laziness:- a problem I will overcome this year by the mercies of God) I will not/never be lazy about what God asked me to do.
So without further a do (i think that's how its said, right?), I present to you the relaunch of my Blog: Children of Light 🥰
I'm going to be your host, for as long s the Lord pleases. ED KURCHI. A child of God and a child of light with PURPOSE.
In God's Grace, We Move!
Faster than a Ferrari
Cheers 🥂
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